So Don't Forget to Breathe Tonight

I've been having an easier time with... being comfortable leaving my eye exposed. I suppose I would not mind a patch as the bandages tend to itch, but I haven't the energy to go and get it. Something about the cold leaves me sluggish. She always said I slept more in the winter time.

Attempting to quit smoking for Kamui's sake is difficult. Though, I am trying.

I wonder why his being here and then leaving still afflicts me even now. He's gone, why should I worry? Why should I even think about him? I think about him... about them both everyday. I have some spite towards this world. There are people here that should be dead in their own worlds... and I wonder why it cannot bring her to me again.

For now... I've just tried distracting myself with Kamui's presence. I... feel like what I used to be with him by my side.

Matsumoto-san, Raine-san, I recalled charms my grandmother had made for my mother when Hokuto-chan and I were both born. They are meant to promote the health and wellbeing of newborns. I managed to find the same items that were kept at the shrine and I have made you each one, if you would like them. Yes I do have an abundance of time on my hands spent trying not so smoke an entire pack of cigarettes all at once. Urges are difficult to deal with.

I will need to find Kamui soon... I admit that I feel... rather lonely. It's quiet here, especially in the snow. Everything seems muted by it.

I feel... bad... I was ill... I did not have the energy to help those in the hotel. I still cannot.. the most I can do now is go and keep Kamui company. I am sure he is lonely without his twin star near.

Matsumoto-san, whenever you wish me to bring it, I've made the tea for you.

With all this fighting and killing going on, I'm not so sure a fighting tournament is the best idea. I'm not... saying it's wrong but I'm afraid things might get worse. Also.. I feel a negative energy around that keeps fluctuating.. maybe I should do some exorcisms, if it's alright with everyone. Investigations first, of course, but still...

Na-kun, if... you want to come home, there's food in the microwave for you.

Oh... all the horrible things going on.

I hope I am able to help the people who are in need of it.

[ooc: pure form of subaru? TB!Subaru!]

MY eyesight has been getting hazy.

Perhaps I should see a doctor.

I don't know what to do anymore...

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Seishirou-san. I want to see you as soon as possible, if you wouldn't mind...

This is one of the strangest occurrences I have witnessed.

Though somehow, I'm pathetically happy because of it.

Really, what's wrong with me? [sighs]

It's...

I sense him.

He's here... I definitely sense his presence..

Why... is he...?

S-Seishirou-san..

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I.....

I think I'm.. going to lie down for a while....


[ooc: Mokona has shattered his mental and emotional state kthx. Good work showing Seishirou dying XD]

( Private; Median difficulty to hack )

I'm going for a walk again. It helped before.

Natsuo is out today. Funny, things seem so quiet. I suppose it's that Edgar doesn't speak much and neither do I, so things remain solemn and quiet.

It's better he go out and have fun, though, I hope he and Kamui are safe. All the deaths and rumors circulating around are worrisome.

Somehow.... I feel I should do something about all this.... I don't know what... or how... I suppose it's the ghost of my old self creeping in.

I haven't seen or heard from... EITHER Kamui in a while. I'm worried. I hope they're both okay. I doubt I could care less for what may have happened to Fuuma, for he is probably the cause anyway.

Miss Natalia, I heard you're back and that you're feeling better. Is it true? I'm glad.

Is there any news on Miss Satella? I haven't kept up as of late.

Natsuo's feeling better.. it's a relief... though... whatever he's taken he's certainly... grown.

[screened from Kamui, Fuuma, Natsuo and Edgar]

I.. I was supposed to be meeting Kamui today, but I think I need to postpone it for a day's time.

Sometime after I got dressed I started feeling... strange. I'm not sure what it is, exactly.

I wonder what exactly's wrong?

[/screened]

[ooc: Subaru is a victim of Mokona's shampoos. He, of course, thinks he's ill, so he blocked it from view of those who might be worried by it. Fuuma, of course, is because Fuuma isn't supposed to know he was meeting with Kamui.

He was dished out the love potion one. So, be forewarned, whomever comments he'll probably spark interest in, ask to see, and whomever first agrees on a meeting he'll insta-fall in love with upon meeting up with them. That's how I've worked it out, anyway. XD]

Natsuo and I now have a new roommate. It'll be nice... to see that room filled. I suppose it's a little upsetting not seeing anyone there. Of course, I haven't heard from Kamui in a while..

I wonder if he's okay.

I doubt there's anything I could do though. I'm weak and I have no grounds to talk about dangerous partners. For as much as I... want to help.. I have people to take care of now.

It's... nice to be needed, even if it's only for little things...

Natsuo, I need to discuss something with you.

Kamui hasn't been back for a day now.

Natsuo and I are worried... does anyone know where he is?

I plan to go find my own place to stay during my time here today. I feel I'm imposing upon Miss Satella and Miss Natalia. I thank you both again for allowing me to recover in your home.

I'm not sure where I'll start looking...

[Private to TRC!Kamui]

The other you, the one from my world, is here. He's... I had to tell him of Fuuma's presence. I know it isn't your responsibility, but I'd like to ask if... if you could keep an eye on the situation as I am? It's a little more difficult now...

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[VOICE TRANSMISSION BEGIN]

*sounds of coughing and heavy breathing are heard*

Nn...

Sei...shirou-san...

*sounds of disoriented key mashing, proceeded by a clatter*

[VOICE TRANSMISSION END]

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[SHUTTING DOWN....]

I've made a few.. friends now. It's something that I haven't done in many many years. It feels like a new experience. I suppose the necessity of it here is the culprit. She might be happier, though, if she knew I was.

I... sense the twin star. Kamui's other.

Everyone, I beg you, be cautious.