So Don't Forget to Breathe Tonight

I've been having an easier time with... being comfortable leaving my eye exposed. I suppose I would not mind a patch as the bandages tend to itch, but I haven't the energy to go and get it. Something about the cold leaves me sluggish. She always said I slept more in the winter time.

Attempting to quit smoking for Kamui's sake is difficult. Though, I am trying.

I wonder why his being here and then leaving still afflicts me even now. He's gone, why should I worry? Why should I even think about him? I think about him... about them both everyday. I have some spite towards this world. There are people here that should be dead in their own worlds... and I wonder why it cannot bring her to me again.

For now... I've just tried distracting myself with Kamui's presence. I... feel like what I used to be with him by my side.

Matsumoto-san, Raine-san, I recalled charms my grandmother had made for my mother when Hokuto-chan and I were both born. They are meant to promote the health and wellbeing of newborns. I managed to find the same items that were kept at the shrine and I have made you each one, if you would like them. Yes I do have an abundance of time on my hands spent trying not so smoke an entire pack of cigarettes all at once. Urges are difficult to deal with.

I will need to find Kamui soon... I admit that I feel... rather lonely. It's quiet here, especially in the snow. Everything seems muted by it.

I feel... bad... I was ill... I did not have the energy to help those in the hotel. I still cannot.. the most I can do now is go and keep Kamui company. I am sure he is lonely without his twin star near.

Matsumoto-san, whenever you wish me to bring it, I've made the tea for you.

With all this fighting and killing going on, I'm not so sure a fighting tournament is the best idea. I'm not... saying it's wrong but I'm afraid things might get worse. Also.. I feel a negative energy around that keeps fluctuating.. maybe I should do some exorcisms, if it's alright with everyone. Investigations first, of course, but still...

Na-kun, if... you want to come home, there's food in the microwave for you.

Oh... all the horrible things going on.

I hope I am able to help the people who are in need of it.

[ooc: pure form of subaru? TB!Subaru!]

MY eyesight has been getting hazy.

Perhaps I should see a doctor.

I don't know what to do anymore...

...

Seishirou-san. I want to see you as soon as possible, if you wouldn't mind...

This is one of the strangest occurrences I have witnessed.

Though somehow, I'm pathetically happy because of it.

Really, what's wrong with me? [sighs]

It's...

I sense him.

He's here... I definitely sense his presence..

Why... is he...?

S-Seishirou-san..

....

I.....

I think I'm.. going to lie down for a while....


[ooc: Mokona has shattered his mental and emotional state kthx. Good work showing Seishirou dying XD]